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一 | 本文来自微信公众号：今心与禾火，作者：今心与禾火，本文首发于2025年6月3日，头图来自：AI生成 5月有几篇阅读量稍好的文章，做个非正式复盘：《高位买房的人，与自己和解了吗？》：目前阅读量2w+，初始阅读量只有一百多，流量在5月初突然增加，自我分析，大概是踩中了一点时代情绪，像我一样在高位买房的人不胜枚数，几年过去，同是天涯沦落人，大家都好奇，他人的人生有什么变化吗？《这个五一，钱都花在胖东来了》：阅读量不算高，但已经高于我此前发过的文章，大概也是借了一点顶流的话题性。 FTX founder Sam Bankman-Fried believed in utilitarianism and thought rules against lying or stealing inhibited his ability to maximize the greatest benefit for the most people, his former girlfriend and co-worker testified Wednesday at his federal fraud trial."He didn't think rules like 'don't lie' or 'don't steal' fit into that framework," Caroline Ellison, Bankman-Fried's on-again, off-again girlfriend, said.She said Bankman-Fried's belief caused her to accept behavior she recognized as wrong."I think it made me more willing to do things like lie or steal over time. When I started working at Alameda, I don't think I would have believed if you told me I would be sending false balance sheets or taking customer money," Ellison, who served as CEO of Alameda Research, said. "Over time it became something I was more comfortable with."Bankman-Fried faces seven counts of fraud, conspiracy and money laundering centered on his alleged use of customer deposits on the crypto trading platform FTX to cover losses at his hedge fund, Alameda Research, and to buy lavish real estate, among other personal expenses.On the witness stand for a second day Wednesday, Ellison walked the jury through Alameda balance sheets which, by October 2022, showed Bankman-Fried's private hedge fund owed FTX customers nearly $14 billion."We had a lot of risk on and we owed a lot of money to FTX customers," Ellison said. "We had no way to repay it."She said Bankman-Fried thought about trying to raise money from Mohammed bin Salman, the Saudi crown prince, or by selling shares in FTX, which would collapse in bankruptcy the following month, in November 2022."I was in a state of dread. I was thinking, worrying, imagining every day what would happen if people tried to withdraw too much money at one time," she said. "I was imagining all the FTX customers who we worked with who would get hurt by this."To shore up Alameda's precarious financial position Bankman-Fried told Ellison to repay Alameda's loans with money it borrowed surreptitiously from FTX customers, she testified Wednesday."He directed me to continue repaying Alameda's loans," Ellison said."How?" prosecutor Danielle Sassoon asked."By taking money from FTX customer funds," she replied.When Sassoon asked her if she knew it was wrong, Ellison replied, "Yeah I thought it was wrong," but continued to do it because "Sam told me to."By that point, Alameda had taken about $10 billion from FTX and Ellison said she worried its lender, Genesis, would find out."We had been borrowing increasing amounts of money from FTX customers and I didn't want Genesis to know that," Ellison said. "I didn't want Genesis or others to know that Alameda was borrowing a lot of money from FTX."Ellison said Bankman-Fried cautioned her against putting anything in writing, once telling her, "Anything we put on Slack should be something we're comfortable seeing in The New York Times."Ellison also described a "large bribe to Chinese government officials to get some of our trading accounts unlocked." Alameda had two trading accounts worth about a billion dollars on exchanges based in China, which were both frozen in 2021 as part of a Chinese government investigation into money laundering.It was a substantial amount of Alameda's trading capital at the time and Ellison accused Bankman-Fried of saying "that we should send the cryptocurrency transfers" equaling about $100 million.。这篇其实是游记，甚至更多在写信阳的山水和美食，此行我很喜欢河南，食物熨帖，人情质朴。《一个90后结婚5年的感受》：阅读量15w+，这篇完全意料之外，看到很多已婚或未婚姐妹的评论，也有人将留言区当小树洞，倾述完又悄然删去，一些留言我甚至未能看见。后来才知道，没有精选出来的留言，即便我回复对方也看不见。今时今日，心境已经完全不同，人甚至无法感同身受三年前的自己，更遑论他人。但也很确定，我们都会走出自己的情绪困局，幼崽一天天长大，会软软地说“妈妈我爱你”，好吃的总要留一份给妈妈，下班一开门就像小狗一样扑进怀里，还会提供“妈妈你今天真好看”的情绪价值。正是这些人生必经的历程，酿成了生命自愈的回甘。言归正传，这十几万的阅读量，最终为我带来多少收入呢？ 97.8元，有零有整。所以我写公众号这些年，单纯为爱发电。

二 | 有收入是锦上添花，没有收入也不影响我忠实地记录生活。回看这些阅读量，也更加确信，真诚是永远的必杀技。虽然收入不过百，但我看到了另一些更珍贵的数据——那篇写婚姻的长文，完读率是21%。意味着每5个点开的人里，就有1个人读完全文。单篇文章带来了1094位新朋友关注我的公众号；同时，公众号里其他“精选文章”的阅读量涨了600+，这大约说明，有600人因为推荐偶然点进这篇文章，看完产生了一点兴趣，又主动去公众号主页翻看了过去的文字。 2025年发表的文章，平均阅读量上涨60+。推算下来，大约有60个人，将我2025年的文章看了一遍。然后，一些更早以前的文章，开始零星收到新的点赞和评论。比如2019年1月写奶奶的《夜深忽梦》，有位姐妹留言说看哭了。写这篇文章的时候奶奶身体还健朗，第二年十月她就去了另一个世界。人总以为来日方长，其实很多告别猝不及防。

三 | 三个月后我写了《世界上所有的夜晚》，“如果真的有另外一个世界存在，我会想象鬼怪中双男主出现救女主的画面，无尽黑暗里，聚光灯从背后照过来，偻着背步履蹒跚的老人走在前面，同样老态龙钟的贝贝跟在身后，人与狗一起温和地走进空旷与虚无。

四 | ” 还有2021年12月，记录生产过程的文章《生孩子到底有多痛》，这是分娩一周后忍着撕裂的痛、用手机一字一字敲出来的，写得一气呵成，字里行间笑中带泪，这是生命掷地有声的回响，提醒我曾如何经历疼痛，又如何被疼痛重塑。生育之后几乎停更两年，疲于照顾高需求的幼崽，也陷在自己的情绪黑洞里不知人间日月长，后来开始记录大橙子的成长，每一岁都有惊喜。常看公众号的朋友，看着我心绪涨落，也看着大橙子从小婴儿长成小男孩模样。大量而频繁地记录生活，确实是我抵抗虚无和无意义的方式。写作忠于自己的感受，写眼见的真实和内心的波澜，它不取悦算法，甚至不期待回响。